A Leap of Faith
When I decided to go to East Asia, it felt less like a personal choice and more like simply obeying God’s call. I first noticed the idea of the trip running through my mind last summer, which I spent at an internship in Chicago. I loved my job, and I’m excited to start working next summer, but I felt the Lord telling me that before I enter into the corporate world, He wants to do some work on my heart first. In particular, He wants to develop my heart for the nations by leading me to a nation I have never been to and know very little about. In fact, I’ve never been out of the country at all, and East Asia seems like a pretty big first step outside the world I’m comfortable in. Going on this trip will be the biggest leap of faith I’ve ever taken, and the only way I can do this is by completely trusting and depending on Him.
I remember my discipler, Jackie, preparing to take this trip last spring. She was a little anxious about it, but when she got back, not only had the nation and its people captured her heart, but she loved it so much she chose to go back and STINT there as a result. By doing something completely unknown and out of her comfort zone, Jackie allowed God to transform her life in a way she never expected, and I fully expect God to do some crazy things in my life as well. I am so excited to experience the Lord in new ways in a completely new country, and I am praying that He would use this trip to grow my heart for others. I can’t wait to see God transform the lives of people who may have never heard of Him until now.
Not surprisingly, raising support has been the most challenging part of preparing to visit East Asia. Even though we leave this Friday, I am still in the process of becoming fully funded. However, through support raising, God has shown me just how immensely blessed I am through the extreme generosity of my friends and family. God really does provide for us.
As we enter into the final week of preparation, some anxieties still remain. I worry about the language barrier when we get there. I worry that I won’t be able to communicate and that maybe I’ll be useless to the people there. I worry about the lack of sleep and my ability to function as a normal human. I worry about finishing my support. I worry about culture shock. I worry about whether or not I’m actually qualified to be doing this. And honestly, I’m not qualified. I don’t speak the language. I get grumpy when I’m tired. I’m no one special at all. But I believe God has called me there for a reason, and I believe that He will use me while I’m there, even in ways I don’t expect. So I’m choosing to cast my cares on Him and hold fast to His truth, even in the midst of my fears. Philippians 4:13 says “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” and that is the truth I’m holding on to as this leap of faith takes me across the world to East Asia over spring break.